love = control

Here I am, the same old game

Some tears, some pills, the unmade bed

I’m losing weight, why should I care?

At the end of the day, we’ll all be dead

Morning comes, my lover’s up

Not asleep, but hope is lost

Waiting for me to be strong

Do you still believe? Can’t you see I’m done?

Standing in the crowd on my knees, shaking

I beg you, please stay home with me

The road is tiring, it suffocates me

You keep hurting yourself

Like you’re not going deeper

I can’t always be your father

You should go and pull the trigger

I don’t wanna lose you again

To the sound of tequila at 4pm

I don’t want to own you but I love that way

Love means control

I can’t seem to change

I can’t forget your past and I don’t understand

The things you’ve done to become a man

We both know I am depressed

I don’t need more loneliness

The only thing I want to feel

Is your skin in the morning haze

Standing here while my heart aches

Let’s play our thing, the starving game

I’m tired of asking ”What is going on?”

We never thought

”You could be right, I could be wrong”

Do you even know how it feels to hear you say

“Oh darling, not today”, three times a day?

It’s not that that’s the only thing I need

But that’s the only moment when our minds completely seal