medicine

so i guess this is the end
same old places, same old story
and a different name
all i wanted was to be misbehave
til the shadows of my past made me go insane

i may need another pill
cause sleeping is not easy since you went away
only memories are left
and regret of a time wasted day by day

roses and pictures
razors and liquor
bloody t-shirts
don't look in the mirror

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all my life
i've been running away from the same old fears
all this time
i've been fading like your sympathy
i'm looking for love in all the wrong places
i'm looking for love in all the wrong faces
all our time
i've been pretending you were not my illness
but you're not my medicine
not my medicine
you're not my medicine
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always scared of fame and growth
he who wasn't thought of sleeping
should throw the first stone
the room's crowded but he's all alone
wake him up and make him see what he has lost

dark paradise

bear the feeling

sunday morning
at least i know i've tried
we both know it's not right to fight
and we both know we explode like dinamite

everybody knows drinking ain't my thing
because when i wake up i can't handle the guilt
hangover when i sleep, hangover when i dream
hanging over words like i'm the enemy

in the spotlight they all see a confident dude
when the show is over, i can hear the claps but what's the truth?


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was it worth it?
was it pleasing?
i just need a reason to bear the feeling

was it stupid?
what's the meaning?
i just need a reason to bear the feeling

i wanna bear the feeling
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what's the point in feeling twisted and blue?
i am not the bad guy, i just need to stay true to myself
in a way that they don't understand

when i breathe in i come to realize
nothing should matter because i'm alive
but the line is thin between the fake and the real
and i'm a little blind so what should i pick?

Maybe you got too attached to being free

Maybe i got too attached to you

The only thing I know is that you ran away

And you've never been seen again

Just like Amy said I should put it in the box

Gwen's in there and i don't care

But oh

First love

First love

You played with my heart

First love

First love

You gave me my scars

First love

First love

You’re now in the dark

First love

This is the end of my love

Don't you think we should pour another beer?

Just like we did when we were young

Remember the time you became my first kiss?

Remember the time when i set you free?

You should know i do

I still remember you

But I know you don't care

Just throw me away

These tears in my eyes are just water

You don't who you are 

So you played the minor scale with my heart

So i've realized you are not free

Honey, i've got freedom to give away

Only thing i know is that you lost me

And next time i see you i won't care

There’s no need to apologize

There’s no need to cry

I just want to feel the relief

Of a stinging memory that’s become art

love = control

Here I am, the same old game

Some tears, some pills, the unmade bed

I’m losing weight, why should I care?

At the end of the day, we’ll all be dead

Morning comes, my lover’s up

Not asleep, but hope is lost

Waiting for me to be strong

Do you still believe? Can’t you see I’m done?

Standing in the crowd on my knees, shaking

I beg you, please stay home with me

The road is tiring, it suffocates me

You keep hurting yourself

Like you’re not going deeper

I can’t always be your father

You should go and pull the trigger

I don’t wanna lose you again

To the sound of tequila at 4pm

I don’t want to own you but I love that way

Love means control

I can’t seem to change

I can’t forget your past and I don’t understand

The things you’ve done to become a man

We both know I am depressed

I don’t need more loneliness

The only thing I want to feel

Is your skin in the morning haze

Standing here while my heart aches

Let’s play our thing, the starving game

I’m tired of asking ”What is going on?”

We never thought

”You could be right, I could be wrong”

Do you even know how it feels to hear you say

“Oh darling, not today”, three times a day?

It’s not that that’s the only thing I need

But that’s the only moment when our minds completely seal